
hiya julie , you sound like me 2 weeks ago i couldnt sleep or eat as i was so worried about vbac and wanted a section which i always vowed id never want another ...very strange !!
i had an emergency section as my sons hb was dropping (turned out he had undiagnosed edwards syndrome and i sadly lost him ).i was very low at the time after zak's birth obviously but also got readmitted with an infection and was in such agony ..worse than any labour!and even 6 months after i was left very week so why did i want another section ? hormones most prob !!
i had an appointment with an anethsetist 2 weeks ago and i broke down telling him how i felt and i didnt want a vbac (even with 3 normal deliveries behind me !). he told me that a section was much more riskier than vbac and talked me through it all .he has arranged that i am to have an epidural as soon as i am in established labour so they have time to get it to work properly and so i have less pain as i will be stressed out of my head! this way if a section is needed its all set up and they can easily top me up.
my main worry is about rupture but they say they will really watch me so for now im ok but who knows ??!!
try and have a word with your mw and explain how stressed you are, i'm glad i told someone now as its hard with all these thoughts and hormones rushing about .
how old is your other child?
take care
amanda x