crazy hormones&pregnancy after rec. miscarriage

Hi all!!

I'm currently 15 weeks pregnant and absolutely over the moon.I've sadly been through 3 recurrent miscarriges in the last 10 months and to find out that i was pregnant again and have now made it this far i just cant describe it!!

My emotions are all over the place!!I thought that by your 2nd trimester it should have passed by now, but wow, mine are terrible!One minute im up the next im down and very tearful.I feel so vulnerable and delicate sometimes and breaking at the slightest thing....god i must sound crazy!!It's definitely a rollercoaster ride right now, i feel so out of control and so scared still of heartbreak in this pregnancy.It just feels too good to be true and i still cant believe we've been as lucky as to get this far!

Anyone in the same position or words of advice??

much love xxx

Hi amoir

i am currently 19 weeks pregnant after a mc in april. i already have a gorgeous little boy who is 14 months, but having the mc really shook me up, and im tending to be quite paranoid about this pg!

you must be over the moon getting so far after 3 mc's. that must have been really hard for you! how far along were you with your mc's?

im finding that my hormones are def alot more up and down in this pg than in my first, and im not sure if that is down to every pg being different, or the fact that im still worried about something going wrong! i have my 20 week scan in a wekk and that is the next hurdle...just hoping everything is ok so i can sit back and enjoy the second half!

try not to worry too much, and dont worry about being up and down and all over the place - it is part and parcel of being pregnant, and is only to be expected after the difficult time you have had! if you are worried about anything get in touch with your mw - im sure they will understand and be only too hapy to put your mind at rest.

i hope you enjoy the rest of your pregnancy, make the most of every second cos it truely is the most magical experience xxxx

Hi,Thanks so much for your reply!!

So glad i'm not such a crazy lady going mad with all the these hormones flying all over the place hey!!Its quite normal!!

I'm sorry to hear of your loss in April, it really is such a devestating time to go through and very heartbreaking, but as you'ver seen, that there is light and little miracles do happen!Congratulations getting to 20 weeks and i only wish you all the best for your scan!!

I've seen the midwife today who checked the babys heart and all was ok so def feel a little more relaxed.She said she will listen every week if i like as she knows it is hard after having 3 miscarriages and knows how nervous i am!My first mc was christmas eve last year at 9 weeks(but didnt find out til 13 weeks) the next two were around 5.

Hope you're feeling ok and well,(and your wonderful hormones aren't driving you up the wall!!hee hee!!)  please leave me messages anytime you wanna chat!!always here, much love xx

Amoir, I'm almost 25 weeks pregnant after 4 recurrent miscarriages hun. Congrats on getting this far in almost one piece!! You've done the hardest bit I can tell you! Did you have treatment or did you manage it naturally? I only ask as I had treatment & that really affected me and my mental state for the first tri!

Don't worry I wasn't quite a loony but not far off lol!!

I found/ still find that pregnancy is very much an up and down affair!! One minute I'm on cloud 9, the next back down again. I would just say chat as much as you can to your due group, cos you can be assured that they're all feeling exactly the same as you!!

I found it very difficult to believe that everything was going to be ok after last year, but once I got to the 20 week scan & everything was confirmed as ok that's when I got 'better' if that makes sense?! We also found out the sex (a little boy!) & I really feel that knowing helped me & hubby to fully accept that we had our little man on the way. It was great to be able to go out & buy blue & prepare too!

How have you been symptoms wise? I'm still being sick, which I also found a great comfort! I had never been so glad to get morning sickness as when I did with this pregnancy!

Great that your MW is keeping an extra eye on you - my mw is a bit heartless & doesn't believe that mc's happen unless you've seen a baby at 12 weeks etc. Yeah that didn't help me in the first tri either!! Never mind, I have a consultant keeping an eye on me instead!!

When is your 20 week scan hun? I have another scan in Nov as I have a low lying placenta at the minute, hopefully it's shifted so I don't need a c sec.

Enjoy every minute of pregnancy hun, I know that it's very difficult sometimes, but just remember how blessed both you & I are. Every pregnancy is special but after so much heartache it feels even more precious. Will be looking out for you hunny! Feel free to pm me at anytime if I can be of any help at all.

Take care of yourself & your bump

Erika

xxx

Hey Nicole......Remember chatting to you too,its good to hear from you!!Thanks for your kind message...Hows all 4 u hun??

take good care xxxxx

Hi Erika!Great great news on your little boy hun,thats fantastic!!!.......You must be over the moon!!

Thanks so much for the message, great to chat to someone who knows what its like to go through similar experiences and have a wonderful outcome!

I have been tested for a few things, but mostly low protein c .I was tested several times and the results came back low, then ok then normal, so they considered clexane(like heparin)in the form of an injection everyday, but then decided against it and now im on aspirin everyday.......so hopefully helping????

Yeah its great the midwife is so understanding and will listen to babys heart every week which is a huge relief and my partner and i have been having lots of private scans here and there to check progress.....Im sorry to hear your midwife a bit heartless,i just dont understand why some of them do this job if they cant be understanding!!???

Its funny you say that the sickness still gives you peace of mind!!I thought it strange that i was sad to see my sickness feelings dissappear soon after 12 weeks, it really did feel comforting knowing i still felt pregnant!!

My 12 week scan is on the 23rd oct, but i have a scan just before then on the 1st of october as we couldnt wait that long!!They must be sick of us up there by now!!(or getting rich from all the money we keep forking out to them!!!lol!!)Its definitely worth it and i would spend every penny i had to know our baby was safe and well.

Thankyou again for you kind words and i think everyday how lucky and blessed you really are after such heartbreaking times that it makes you appreciate every moment right now....Much love to you and all the best......Here always to talk(apart from when blinking computer decides to go mad on me!!!.....)

love Amoir xxxx

Ahh the wonders of modern technology lol!

Great to hear back from you - I'm so glad that my post helped you hun. I can totally understand you wanting as many scans as possible!! Had I had the money I'd have been the same!! I bet the people at your scan place are just delighted to help a couple who have been through so much, we've found that a lot. The lady who carried out our 12 week scan was actually the lady who did most of our internal scans after our mc's. She even had a little tear for us when we saw our baby bumping around at 12 weeks!

When we had our 20 week scan and everything was confirmed as ok we were in floods of tears! We explained to the sonographer why & her attitude totally changed & we were in there for ages looking at our little mans's feet etc. I can't wait for you to experience that hun!

Yes with the sickness, I remember not being sick for one day around 13 weeks and panicking!! Although I was sick as recent as 24 weeks! I find hunger is my trigger at the moment, but then I seem to be hungry constantly!!

There were days after our 12 week scan when I just felt really ill with the sickness etc & I got so down, but then once you feel that first flutter everything just clicks into place! Before you know it you can see your belly moving around on it's own - totally amazing!!

Don't you find it amazing that one little tablet seems to make everything ok?! I had to just take 5 tablets (clomid) at a certain place in my cycle & it fixed me! After going thru all that, all it took was one little tablet! I do wish they'd look into it sooner though, as going thru mc after mc it does make you feel so down & useless, as I'm sure you'd agree?

Rest assured that I am always on here posting on my due thread (Jan 2010) so will always looks out for you - feel free to ask any questions etc, although like me you've probably read every internet site & every book by now lol!

Can't wait to hear how your scan goes lovey! Will be thinking of you!

Love to you & your OH (it's very difficult on them at the moment as they don't 'feel' pregnant nor do we really 'look' pregnant in the early stages. My hubby didn't really except it til around 18 weeks when he felt him move!!)

Erika

xxx

amoir i know what your going thru also i had 2 mc's before i fell pregnant with this one im now 20 weeks and have my 20 week scan next week but yes even though i know im past the 12 week mark and im mean to be at less risk of having a mc i am still worrying constantly and probally will until the baby is born to be honest but i just hope all goes well throughout the pregnancy im hoping to buy a doppler just for the reassurance then i can listen to the babys heart beat in the comfort of my own home

i thought 2 mc's was super hard but 3 or 4 that would have just brought me down so much and im glad yas both got your happy ending

Sammie Krystal & Bump (19+6)

Hi Sammie,

Congratulations on your pregnancy,thats great news hun!!It really is a worry after u've suffered such a loss or contiuous losses,it makes things very difficult to just sail through without a worry in the world!

I know exactly what u mean about making it pass the 12 week mark and now being at 20 you'd think you'd worry far less, but i feel exactly the same!I'm a few days away from being 20 weeks and also have my scan next week too, but just know i'll still feel nervous and scared until our little miracle is safe and well in our arms!

Let me know how your scan goes,are you going to find out the sex if you have the chance?Is this your first baby also?Have you got a little bump yet and feeling any flutters??That def gives peace of mind, having a little feeling now and again!

take good care and much love xxx

hey amoir

yes it deffinately doesnt get any easier no matter how far we get in the pregnancy this is my second child my daughter will be comming up for 3 when this little bundle of joy arrives

yeah im hoping to find out the sex so i can start thinking about what to buy then i know if im buying blue or pink will make it so much easier aswell couldnt find out with daughter she was moving around to much so thats another reason why im hoping to find out this time im just impatient lol feeling a few little flutters here and there

well i know its me just being an over worrier but then i dont blame us for being like that when we have been through what we have

(19+6)

Hey Amoir - just wanted to pop in again & say how pleased I am that you're doing so well & wow, nearly at your second scan already!! How exciting!! Hope we get to see a pic?!

I'm now 29 weeks & really looking forward to our next scan at 32 weeks! Can't wait to see the little man again and find out where the placenta is now etc. Got more or less evrything in place now, how about you - have you started buying things yet?

Everytime I see the mw there's a new worry! Some days it still doesn't feel real for me & hubby, still waiting for my world to come crashing down & for someone to take it all away again.

I just wanted to say something about the dopplers. It was something I considered to start with, for the same reasons, but I'm so glad i DIDN'T buy one. My placenta is low lying & anterior (all at the front) so much so that not even the MW could pick up little man's heartbeat at one of the apts, and that's with their hi-tec ones. A dopler for home would've been useless in my case & a total worry.

Like I say, I totally understand why you would want one, but sometimes we can have too much information & too many gadgets at hand if that makes sense? Sometimes I just think it's best to leave things to the professionals.

Love to all

Erika (29+3)

xxx

yeah i know i decided in the end not to buy one but i do keep getting tempted to buy one but i know if i cant find the heartbeat it will make me worry so it keeps me from buying it  got my 20 week scan tomorrow and really cant wait

will be nice to say to my daughter that her little brother or little sister is looking forward to meeting her without having to say both lol

Sammie Krystal & Bump (20+3)

well had my scan today and found out im having another little girl so looking forward to that and all is well the baby is growing perfectly which is great she measuring up well now just have to wait to meet her in person

(20+4)

Sammie just wanted to say congratulations to you!! Fab news that everything is ok! How did little Krystal take the news of a new baby sister?!

Hope you continue to have a happy & healthy pregnancy hun

xxx

she loves it she gave my tummy a kiss so im taking that she quite happy to have a little sister and she loves babys anyway she always around them

and thank you

(20+5)

Hi girls....

Congratulations Sammie on another baby girl thats great news and very exciting!!!!

I had my well awaited 20 week scan yesterday and all seemed well and ok!!Had a tiny bit of bleeding during the week so was absolutely petrified,they were worried bout the placenta, but all was fine and doesnt seem to be any worries, so great relief!!PHEW!!!

But for the best bit, we found out that we are having a baby girl!!!!!!!So so excited and over the moon!!Cant believe that we now know the sex of our baby and that we are halfway through already...Just cant get my head around it!!I still feel like im really early on(minus the small bump growing in front!!)We've just never got this far and it seems like a miracle.just beaming this morn!!!!!!!!

Have a lovely weekend girls and chat soon, much love xxxxx

(20+5)!!

hey amoir thats great news im glad everything is ok now congratulations on a little girl amoir enjoy the rest of the weekend more work tomorrow then that will be it the end of work for me having so much trouble with my back its getting ridiculous ahh the fun of pregnancy lol

(21+1)

Aww Amoir!! Fab news!! Congrats hun! Great to know that everythings ok!

Try to enjoy the rest of your pregnancy, I'm finding it so difficult at the moment  I am worrying about everything! Latest worry is I am nowhere near big enough for 30 weeks but have a scan a week thurs, can't wait to see the little man again & know everythings ok!

Sammie, hope you're doing well lovey? You finising work already?! I have 5 weeks left til maternity leave, can't wait!!

Still hasn't sunk in that I'm having a baby though. Anyone else feeling like this?

xxx

yeah i still dont feel pregnant only time i do is when she kicking me to hell like she is right now lol

i just left work im not actually entitled to maternity pay and im having a lot of problems with my back so iv had to quit work cuz its leaving me so bad that i cant look after my daughter cuz i cant stand back up after getting home and sitting down so iv left gunna have to start getting IS

hope you are all well

(21+2)