Hi Myst.
I do hope you can start to open up and talk to someone. If not to us through this site, to a friend/family member/midwife etc... People are always here and everyone will always be there to help and support you through this confusing time.
From the sounds of it, you really do need to speak to someone.
Keep in touch (if you want). Just dont go through it alone. Please. For you and your 'bump'.
Charlotte. xxx
